You might be curious as to where I’ve been lately, and I apologize (again) for yet another unexplained absence/hiatus.
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Truth is, I’ve been in a strange place these days — one of heavy brainstorming and little actual action. Normally I’d call it writer’s block and wait till the elusive day of true inspiration rolled around, but given there arepeople who follow this blog (even if some days it doesn’t feel like it) and I believe so deeply in my message, I knew I couldn’t just drop off the face of the earth.
I guess I’m just trying to reassure you all that even if I disappear for a while, I’ll always come back. I’m too invested in the mission of this blog to ever just ball it up and throw it into the landfill of the Internet. I assure you you have been in my thoughts this entire time I have been gone.
But I do want to announce an upcoming change. For a long while, I’ve found my posts to be almost impersonal. Given the subject matter, it’s been difficult to breathe any kind of life into my writing about disability acquisition and recovery; it’s a delicate balance between heavy, hard-hitting stuff and the lighthearted. Thing is, I’m not crying myself to sleep every day upset about my condition and even poke fun at myself regularly (call it a defense mechanism?), but there are days I fly into rages at the situation. I struggle, in my writing, with giving appropriate respect to the heaviness of the topic and trying not to ever sound too glib, at the same time not presenting the information in such a somber way that people get depressed reading my words.
The fact is that going through any significant loss or injury is going to change you profoundly, but in order to get through it you’ll need an ample arson of humor, and at the risk of sounding sentimental, love and support. Different people respond to your story in different ways — sometimes with large-eyed awe, sometimes with mild surprise, and others with what seems like distance or even indifference (or no reaction at all!). None of these responses is right or wrong, but I have to keep in mind that whatever I write in this very public forum will be received by any or all of these types of people.
Anyway, while I’d like to keep the fundamental format of the blog the same (majority of posts written by yours truly based on my own experiences and experiments), I’m going to shift the tone of the blog from a dry, informative voice to a warmer and more “me” one.
You’re going to get more of a sense of my personality from now on, in hopes that you can all recognize that despite differences in opinion, background, education, or what have you, the experience of disability acquisition/traumatic injury/human suffering is universal. I want you to be able to see the reality of my confessions, and see that behind what’s visible, I am a person like you or your loved one who is going through something life altering. And people are fallible, people are opinionated, people are an amalgam of good and bad qualities.
So, here marks a new chapter of my blog. I hope you enjoy it. And please, if you do, don’t hesitate to spread the word, as I can only help people as long as my voice is heard.
To our healing,