Because rehab is a sort of a constant uphill battle, the fire you feel to fight can easily fizzle out over time. Sucks, doesn’t it?
I find that the drive involved in really feeling that energy just sort of ebbs and flows. Sometimes, a powerful surge of inspiration comes and you feel like you’re brand new again, but over a little while, you start falling into old habits again and tend, like any animal, to do what is more efficient. But you do have to remind yourself — or come here and let me remind you — that you’re a human being; you actually know better. It is all too natural to fall back on old habits, to let your motivation wane, so don’t be too hard on yourself for that. But pick yourself back up.
Occasionally I will get abrupt, harsh judgments from my father, who will be all, “Why aren’t you using your left hand?” Rather than allowing myself to get defensive, I’ll just take it as a reminder — upfront as it may be — to take it up a notch and ignore any negativity that may be construed as an attack on me. The statement, although poorly constructed, comes from a desire to help, from a place of tough love, not out of malice.
Remember that if it happens to you, but of course it should always be respectful. They don’t know how hard it is to remember, and remember fully, your affected (neglected) side. Explain to them that it’s a little bit like forcing yourself to be in constant awareness of your ears — you know they’re there, but because you can’t quite move them, you sometimes forget about them. (If this isn’t a perfectly accurate analogy, I don’t know what is.)
Most importantly, though, you must remember that your rehab depends on you. And the only way it will be accomplished is if you are consistent — so even if that passion burns and snuffs out, at least be consistent in renewing your drive.
Remind yourself however you must; read this blog every day, post famous quotes around in your surroundings, put up old photos of yourself dancing — whatever it takes. Remember your personal why. Visualize yourself completely healed. Meditate, find an inspirational story to uplift you. (This is partly why I recommend reading My Stroke of Insight to pretty much everyone I know.)
Don’t let your pride get in the way of your rehab. As embarrassing as it can feel to be vulnerable to your current weaknesses, acceptance of your present state is crucial to being able to address your journey for improvement.
Remember that shirt my friend gave me in the hospital? “It’s all mental,” it says. And so it is. Please remember, as a favor to yourself, that any success you may have from therapy and rehab begins with your mindset, and then carrying it out.
To our healing,